The Forgotten Blog

{Click to listen to Loren read this post: The Forgotten Blog}

I had the greatest idea for my next blog post while I was in the shower this morning. Trouble is—I forgot what it was. That’s one of the new things that I’m experiencing. My short term memory is being zapped by the radiation. I think I set out to write about the way cancer therapy kicks a person’s @$$—and the fact that I was hiding from the side effects. I’ve begun distancing myself from friends and coworkers out of fear of being seen while I’m not at my best. By not at my best—I mean my words are slurred and my hair is falling out (no seriously it is).

Recently, I’d started adding audio to my blog. But with the last 2 posts—I avoided that. I used the excuse that I was too tired, too busy or too [insert cancer excuse here]. But the truth is—I had lost confidence in my voice. My particular tumor was on the left frontal lobe which controls the right side of my body and my speech. I now have very limited use of my right hand—I dropped a watermelon at Seaside Market today for example (shout out to the guys who had to clean it up).  And as I continue with radiation, some of my good brain cells (near the evil ones) are caught in the crossfire. Long story short—my speech is on a downhill slide.

We set out to make this blog an honest look at one family’s journey. So, today I’m gonna try again. The changes in my voice will be subtle—but they’re there—and hopefully temporary. So don’t judge me too harshly when you listen to today’s audio version.

Oh now I remember that blog idea I had in the shower this morning! Did you read the Union Tribune article this weekend about the Ramona couple busted for growing medicinal marijuana?! I guess I’ll save that for my next post. Remind me if I forget.

Loren

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  2. isela says:

    Really miss your Beautiful communication in the time we were all praying for Dads recovery He is still here in all our hearts may all you and your Family Wishes be fullfilled you are Beautiful PEOPLE

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  4. Your words are precious Loren. You know my sister Denice from Star B Ranch. I have not met you yet but Denice says you are delightful and I can feel it from your writings. Thirty years ago I founded the World Research Foundation. Our purpose was to collect and disseminate important healthcare information from around the world. Along the way, we found that there were successful therapies and technologies that were little known in the U.S. being used for cancer, AIDS, heart disease etc. We have been doing our best to educate people about all the possibilities for their health challenges. One doctor you might be interested in has worked extensively and successfully with brain cancer. His name is Dr. Stanislaw Burzynski and his clinic is located in Texas. You might want to check out his work for your own situation. If you have any questions you can call me at the World Research Foundation office in Los Angeles at 310-827-0070. I wish for you a speedy recovery. You are very inspirational and I think your writings and blogs will touch many others. Hopefully, we will meet one day. Be Well, LaVerne

  5. Janie Klein says:

    I’ve only posted once before and I’m not sure if it took or not. But I am going to write again because I want to say hello. I just think you’re the cat’s meow, whatever that means. But it’s supposed to mean the very best! So I am writing today because I just hosed off the aphids on my new delicate rose buds. What a coincidence that’s what you are sharing today. Those nasty old aphids try to get my roses every year but I try to stay ahead of them. I have some pretty roses such as, Honor, Golden Midas, Double Delight, Lady Diana, Brigadoon, Secret, About Face, Las Vegas, Betty Boop, Silvarado and a few others whose names are unknown to me. I have lived in my house for nearly 47 years. I have always loved gardening. I have different gardens in my yard; 5 succulent gardens, 1 shade garden, 1 tropical garden, fruit trees such as bananas, Papaya, Pomegranate, apple, Black Fig, avacados, and another one that I can’t remember the name of right now. I think this memory is called a brain toot :). So you see, I have many types of plants and because of you, I have earned how to care for many of them. I love your sweet personality. You make gardening fun for me and of course, others. So, just so you know, I think of you often and I hope you feel better soon. Janie Kein

  6. Gene Cubbison says:

    I thought I’d learned quite a bit about hope, strength and courage from my mother and sister, before they passed away from brain cancer in late 2011 and last June, respectively.
    You’ve taken that schooling to a whole new level, Loren.
    Your message is getting through loud and clear, brother — don’t sweat the details of its delivery.
    — Gino & Jan

  7. Melissa Craig says:

    Loren-It’s great to hear your voice again- I think you sound great! God bless you and your family!

  8. Thanks for posting this page. May God Bless You!

  9. Anonymous says:

    The comment by Judy absolutely embodies what it means to be real. You define REAL. Your grace, humbleness and outlook on life is satori and kensho!

  10. jsibusiness says:

    I will continue to listen to anything you have to say and I hope you never punt speaking to us no matter what. You make more sense and speak of things that mean more to us than any major Newcast has to say. I look forward to hearing from you every week, whether you babble or forget a word or two. Listening to a friend speak of his life, the good and the bad is what I call real news. You’re a brave man Loren and every word you speak is elegant and honest. Just keep talking to us. It sounds selfish, but it is comforting to hear from you each week and I could listen to you forever. Be well. We are always here to support you. Warmest regards, Judy Ito

  11. Jennifer May says:

    My family has you in our thoughts and prayers and we will never forget following your work through all of these years… :) Sending lots of love to your family!
    The May Family

  12. rmarvinwebster says:

    Your voice does sound different, Loren. But it still has all that warmth and love and humor we all adore. It all must be so difficult (now that’s an understatement), but keep your pecker up (good British expression). We love you oodles and cheering for your speedy recovery!

  13. Anonymous says:

    Dear Loren, as I have gone through way too many brain tumors than I care to admit with my friends….my heart aches even more each time I hear the pain of another friend going through it…it brings all the struggles back to mind. Currently I have two friends battling this battle. I just hate brain tumors. At the same time I realize it is life and life brings many gifts. One of those gifts is kindness…I am sure you have felt a lot of that lately. You know why? At some point you have given that to all of us. From talking to you on the beach….to pitching work ideas…to living by your asthma cure of watering the flowers to feel better tip, you have been a part of my life and that of my family. You have touched so many of us…so we all hope you feel our wings around you. We love your voice. I pray for you and your family. I pray you will pick up “How to Outsmart Cancer.” It is my bible on remaining cancer free. Your words are good therapy for us all. Don’t ever stop making your words….Kia ora, Bula, and for now…..sweet dreams.

  14. Cherie says:

    I moved away from San Diego some years ago but still have deep roots in the community. A friend shared your journey with me as she knows you were always one of my favorite newscasters! Know that you’ve so many from so far and wide who are keeping you close in thought and prayer. Your spirit and energy on your voice blog is strong and bright. And your wonderful approach to your fight is hopeful, humorous and enlightening. May your each and every day be better and better, and may this find you enjoying each and every day with your family and friends.

  15. Anonymous says:

    You sound great Lorren….I couldn’t detect any change at all…great to hear your voice :)

  16. Judy Taylor says:

    Loren Loren Loren, Not only do you sound like your fabulous self but as usual, you put a smile on my face. It should be me ano the multitude of your loyal fans who make you smile. I look forward to reading or listening to what you have to say. And I am NEVER dissappointed. I am sorry you are going through the evil cancer thing but your strength and great attitude are increidble. For years I have watched you and thought what an amazing man you are. I even got to meet you a couple of times. sigh Now even in this trying time you are still shining. You are my hero, Loren Nancarrow!

  17. Loren, it does not matter how well or poorly you do something. What counts is that you ARE doing it. Posting you comments is good for you and all your followers. Keep it up. We need you!

  18. ok, this may seem a bit crude and my sense of humor is a bit off the wall…. but your comment on loosing your hair. …under your arms or pubic?
    i find your blog light hearted yet intense at the same time. it helps me to live in the present and appreciate all that i have every day while at the same time reminding me to laugh at the stuff that many of us take way too seriously.
    keep writing. this is a great gift you are giving all of us. thank you.
    fred

  19. Raine says:

    Just found your blog. I saw the UT article awhile ago whcich enlightened me as to your present whereabouts. I have watched your TV personality since coming to San Diego in 1987 & always enjoyed what you had to say. Now your story takes a new turn and all your “people” travel with you down this strange and scary road by way of your marvelous voice keeping us informed. When you feel dis-courage-d think of all the good thoughts that are sent your way every day! Include mine.

  20. Sofia says:

    Loren, I was hoping to see you and your wife last night at the Don Tolman conference in Encinitas. I told him about you and he offered to help. He will be in San Diego for two more days. He saved my friend Wil from cancer spreading. Wil had stage 4 throat cancer. He had the same head gear that you have in radiation. He endured six weeks of chemo as well. He was close to death, when we met Don Tolman. I urge you to go on his website and contact him ASAP. He can and will help you!!

  21. Elaine Benjamin says:

    Hi Loren

    I have been a big fan of yours for a long time. I watched your weather reports on channel 8 and channel 10. I also watched you on Fox asthe anchor man. I have always admired your commitment to the environment and your pursuit to educate the public to live free of toxic substances, and to provide alternative ways to keep our environment free of these toxins. I appreciate you sharing this journey you and your family are nowembarking on, it shows great courage. I’ve enjoyedthe audio componentso much, as you have awonderful t.v./radio voice. You sound great! You continue to be in my thoughts, I wish the best for both you and your family.

    Elaine Benjamin

    ________________________________

  22. mom24 says:

    My son was diagnosed with a brain tumor, a rare one in adults…maybe 2 in a million per year for adults (he was soooo lucky, wasn’t he)…now why couldn’t we have those odds in wining the lottery :) Surgery was successful, radiation was kinda scary, and he is just about to finish his third cycle of chemo, a schedule probably going until October. He is the bravest person I know on the earth….just know that people think you are brave and courageous…side effects albeit discouraging are probably to be expected, and yes (and I never thought I would say this, ever, ever) but the use of marijuana for medicinal purposes are is amazing (he tried the prescription antinausea pills), and it doesn’t take a lot. I have seen it work miracles…hang in there, lots of prayers to you and your family.

  23. Jerome says:

    On the upside, in the middle of any conversation you can really fake a good orgasm!

  24. Anita Lawrence says:

    Hang in there, Loren! Having experienced similar symptoms when my husband underwent radiation/chemo, I have two pieces of advice:
    1) Just shave your head now – the hair will come back later
    2) Train yourself to put things like eyeglasses in the same place whenever you aren’t using them; it will help you to remember where you put them.
    I’m praying for your complete recovery.
    Anita

  25. Beth says:

    Thank you for keeping it real, Loren! You are still the same to all of us, the same witty, smiling dude that brightens our days! Keeping you in my prayers!

  26. Susy Jones says:

    Do you have any horses that need care, or any animals, or anything at all for me to do, I need dinero badly, can whisper any animal or person, not afraid to get dirty in the manure,not afraid of your health issues, can help your Suzie with anything legal and moral. or …? highly educated, just need a chance, have a long term plan to put the Donald in his place, preschool (Reggio Amelia -Google that please). will be like bill gates with my mula.

  27. Mark Chadwell says:

    Luv ya Loren. You sound inspirational, even to me, who has made the journey you are traveling.

  28. Susy Jones says:

    You will win this fight, even if you go to our heavenly father above, you have already left a significant mark on this planet, always to be remembered and revered, now just before you leave could you please murder DONALD TRUMP FOR ME??? HE is the evil, devil incarnate, and has horrible hair, for that alone he should be shot in the balls.

  29. Ruth says:

    I am traveling with 93 students from our faIr city but still following you on your journey. Blessings to you friend!. Washington DC rocks but people keep asking us why we would EVER leave our jewel of a city.

  30. Anonymous says:

    One of the things I can tell you about the cancer journey is what I used to call the countdown. My niece, Devon, coined the phrase to help me “count down” the number of treatments that I had left to face…Each treatment meant one less, going forward…As for side effects, they are on count down, too! Hair will come back, (maybe more on your head! it could be curly, too!) I bet your speech gets better and your strength improves…Just remember the countdown…It won’t last forever…Hang in while we pray for you…D

  31. Laura says:

    My inspirations most frequently visit me in the shower. Unfortunately, most of them wash down the drain and I don’t even have a medical excuse. Just too many thoughts trying to rain on me.

    I have always enjoyed listening to you, but never so much as now with your “compromised” voice. Your new brand of poignancy is the greatest gift I have received from you.

    Love and light to you!

  32. Bobbie Cruzen says:

    Dear Loren: it seems appropriate at this juncture (I love using this word as it reminds me I do know more than my everyday vocabulary) to say that the admission of your side effects does not scare anyone off by your telling us so. For you to see them written down or to hear them coming from your own mouth is obviously making them more real. I imagine that is scary in and of itself. It just makes you more human! So your speech is slurred, your memory is taking a break, and you’re losing what hair you have left on your head. You are still Loren! Now no forgetting that, ok?
    Take care, Bobbie

    • Anonymous says:

      Hey Loren, Larry Roberts here, formerly with KGTV in the 80s. Just wanted you to know I always admired your work.. very smooth, polished, and professional.
      You dont have to apologize for your voice on your blog. Sounds pretty good to me.
      It is very brave for you to share your life with us. thanks so much .

  33. gary and betty stewart says:

    wow lauren, we wouldn’t have expected you to say that, but again, you are human like all the rest of us. we will say thank you for being just that. we will be expecting changes, and MAY GOD BE THERE TO EXPEDITE THE POSITIVE CHANGES EN ROUTE! please know that we have watched you for so many years, the fact that you are so human! is a plus for us. that is the very thing that always kept us watching what you do best, your job! hang in there chief! we love and miss you, but no matter what your best is, it is what it is, so no apologies for voice, etc. we get the best of you whatever it is!!!!!!! we will continue to keep up with you friend!we were so glad you have made this available. you are one of the best newscasters we have ever had!, get back to work bro! oxoxox betty and gary stewart

  34. Sandy Scholz says:

    I did not notice any issues with your voice. I can’t wait to hear about the medical cannabis article. I’m a 70+ young woman who got her medical permit and used the tincture form during my 5 week chemo/radiation treatment for lung cancer. Never got nauseated or threw up. Making cannabis illegal for medical purposes is terrible. It is a safe and effective medicinal drug. Best of luck with your treatment. Chemo/radiation wiped out 80% of the tumor and surgery three weeks ago took care of the rest of the tumor.

  35. misha says:

    Hi Loren,
    Just wanted to tell you I love you. I loved your post today… none of us are perfect… and we love your voice no matter how we can get it… “it” (as in everything) seems to always get worse before it gets better.. that’s just the lame thing about the universe….please keep sharing with us…. ps..working on the medicinal pot story you mentioned… crazy right? :) Big hugs my friend and lotta LOVE.

  36. Darcy says:

    Even when I read your words, in my head, they are always in your perfect, “TV Personality” voice. I know these new changes are tough for you. Sending love and positive thoughts to you and your family through this tough stuff. You all are amazing!!!

  37. Kathy and Bill says:

    Your voice sounds awesome to us! We think of you everyday & send good karma, prayers, thoughts, love, etc…your way!

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