The Pinball

Central Oregon Waldport, 100 miles North of Coos Bay.

I’ve learned what it’s like to be an inanimate object recently — specifically, a pinball.
I awoke in the middle of the night and discovered the right side of my body had gone to sleep. When I tried to stand, I was launched across the room, with power on only one side.
I made it remarkably far before crashing. There were smashed garbage cans and blood smeared on walls. I’m not sure how I catapulted so far through the house before landing in a clump, with a number of dents over my own body now too. So goes life, six months after becoming a Brain Cancer patient.
Interesting. Until recently this remained a physical illness. It’s been just the last month or two that I feel it affecting my brain as well. Simple computer tasks are harder. Getting my body to do what I ask it to do is more difficult. But again, nothing that thousands and thousands of Cancer patients don’t face every day. I wonder about other people out on the road that look sick. Are they doing the same thing? Are they trying to pack in as much life as they can? If so, good for them!
The Sooz and I are on the road again. We spent time with friends and family in Seattle and the San Juan Islands. As much fun as it is, I can’t help but feeling at times that it’s a farewell tour. I gotta get over that feeling.
The last time you heard from me, I was preparing for a big speech, following a surprising Society of Professional Journalist Award. The award allowed me to sort of design what I’d like to do for the rest of my life. One of the most important things for us is to help with what blindsided me, specifically Brain Cancer. Secondly, I’d like to continue to work on what’s been my life’s passion: conservation and The Ecolife Foundation. Third, working to improve journalism, the profession I love so much.
To accomplish our goals, we’re putting our efforts into ‘The Nancarrow Project’ and we hope you’ll help us when possible. We’ll tell you what’s going on as it happens. We’ll ask for your help as appropriate.
In the mean time I’m still plugging away. My gardening is now miniaturized into Bonsai. But my goals remain as large as they’ve always been.
Tomorrow we’re off to see the giant Redwoods in Southern Oregon. The Sooz will post some more pictures soon.
Thanks for staying close and for sharing your thoughts with us. You’re all so awesome.
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118 comments on “The Pinball
  1. Anonymous says:

    My thoughts and prayers are with you during this fight. May you stay strong and kick this devil in the buns! With the love and support from your family and many friends, and fans, you will get through this! Patti

  2. Trisha Eifert says:

    Loren we miss you so much. Such a delightful person you are. Just know you are in our thoughts and prayers for peace and comfort. You continue to fight cause God’s got this one.

  3. Stephanie Castro says:

    Mr. Nancarrow, I check your blog periodically to check on your progress. Healing and getting well, I believe are two different processes. I pray that with any physical wellness you achieve along with it will come a healing of your sprit and that of your wonderful, supportive family. You are an inspiration. Thank you for letting us come along on your journey.

  4. Marie says:

    My husband, a research scientist at Scripps in La Jolla, has a GBM brain tumor stage 4. Diagnosis on June 27. We just finished up his first (and we hope his only) round of chemo and radiation. We’re going alternative. Scary, but confident. We’re doing a strict ketogenic diet and the latest FDA approved device – wearing electrodes with a battery pack. Novocure TTF. Oh, not to forget… prayer. Wish us luck, Loren. You’re an inspiration.

    • Nudi says:

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    • Anonymous says:

      Marie, Visualization is a good alternative “practice.” Have your hubby visualize the GBM being popped like soap bubbles, never to return!

    • here says:

      Please keep throwing these posts up they help tons.

    • Zeynep says:

      You will have to see a doctor about this. You can’t afrfod treatment, but what is the alternative .If you are serious about your hair loss, make an appointment and get a diagnosis. There might be something less expensive you can try.References :

    • Thanks for your thoughts. It’s helped me a lot.

  5. jayne wildorchid says:

    Ah that cute and pesky smile in the last picture with the beanie on. You look 21 Loren 🙂

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