This business of surviving cancer seems silly at times. Many of you will survive — and each of you are my heroes. Many more of us stand far less of a chance. So my question is for those of us with lower odds — when is enough, enough?
I am truly excited for the next step. Together, Susie and I have tried to envision a butterfly’s metamorphosis. As I transform from this world, I hope to be thrilled by what I experience next — but it’s difficult to imagine what that will be. Will it be bright lights and loved ones? Will I be returned to some place I’ve been before? Or is it simply ashes to ashes?
Eleven months into the predicted 1-3 year ordeal. Susie has read me volumes of books to help me prepare for that next step. Right or wrong, the books help me draw strength and I genuinely feel comforted by the idea that good things lie beyond this life. Not knowing what they are is fascinating, albeit frightening — and the question of “when is enough, enough?” continues to haunt me.
The first 6 months made me want to keep living. Our road trips were so full of hope and time seemed almost limitless. But now the reality: I’m no longer the same person and I can feel life slipping away. Each passing day becomes more difficult and some of the things that once brought me so much joy are now missing — like cooking and gardening. And everyday stuff we take for granted, like driving. I really miss driving.
There are also things that remain intact — my family continues to be present, supportive and loving, my friends stay in contact (almost to a fault), I’m still in awe of each December sunset — and an entire city has made me feel like their son.
So, as for my question of when is enough, enough?
The answer is…not today.
Loren
Photo Credit: Tamilee Webb ❤
The Nancarrow Project 
Dearest Loren and Family,
It is always so wonderful when those who will be left without you have time enough to let you know how very much you have meant to them. How lovely it is that you have been able to hear from us all, the positive impacts you have made on so many lives! I have always thought that saving all of our kind words and stories for a funeral is silly.
Nobody knows when he or she will breathe the last breath. I’m enjoying the sunsets and the sunrises too, and I’m glad you can still see them with your family. I will think of you tonight, and the infinity of our universe, and how much is still and will forever be beyond the grasp of life on earth.
A friend sent me this, so reading for the first time. Lost Mom to It. They said two years, and a month shy, she suddenly couldn’t speak, within an hour she was bed ridden, two weeks later gone. I miss her alot. I only hope your right about how wonderful it will be. Tell your family now, to ask everything that they’ve ever wanted to know about you. Trust me they’ll wish they had. I still wonder if I should have picked up her frail body and gave her a bath, she loved her bathes. Thanks for your time and be at peace.
Happy trails to you…..
Until we meet again….
Happy trails to you ..
Keep smiling until then…
Be at peace
Dear soul
Our journey begins
We meet soon
In the clearing
At the end
Of the path
Bob Pacilio
Loren you are the embodiment of what it is to be a wonderful man. I am at a loss to find words that capture your spirit. I am sure you know that you are a beloved figure in this town. (and I always though my wife had a crush on you, too! I hope miracles happen…
With Admiration–
Bob and Pam Pacilio
“Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has yet to come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering”
― Ida Scott Taylor
Thanks you so much for your inspiration. After I lost my 2.5yr old grandchild to neuroblastoma cancer 2yrs ago, I became a believer in angels. I know it was her watching over me when I was in a horrible car accident that I walked away from with just a torn rotator cuff. I don’t know what awaits us when we depart but I feel you will be an angel with very big wings. You are an inspiration to many of us that don’t even know you. Enough will be enough some day. You will know.
We will never have enough of you, but you will know when you’ve had enough of us. I believe there is something, what, is still being defined. Your family and friends are along side your every decision, loving you and wanting the best for you. Where ever you go, love will always be surrounding you. You define “living in the moment” for us. Su Amiga.
Thank you! You are so gracious and you sre helping me with my husbands illness.
Dear Loren,
My 11 year old son passed away 22 years ago from an astrocytoma in the Brain Stem. I know first hand what you have had to endure this past year. You have been so incredibly generous to share this difficult journey with the public who love you so very much. Because I believe in miracles of all kinds I would like to share one of mine. I have never shared this “sacred” experience that I was blessed with during my time of need, but would like to share it with you today. A short time before my sweet boy passed, he asked me what there was to do in heaven. I thought, then answered, that the streets in heaven were paved in gold and there were incredibly vibrant coloured flowers. He said, no mom, I mean is there a disneyland there? I answered that I didn’t know, then asked him to promise that he would return to tell me if indeed there were things for a small boy to do in heaven. Two months after he passed, he did return to me in a very vivid dream. I dreamed that I was getting out of my car, he appeared outside the grassy area in our front yard. He was laughing, running, and kicking a soccer ball. He was having so much fun. He hadn’t been able to play like that for a very long time (No more decadron body!) He had never had an interest in soccer either. He looked up at me and I asked him if heaven was beautiful. He answered yes. Then I asked him if he was happy, he answered yes. He let me reach out and caress his face and tilt up his chin so I could look into his eyes. He was a beautiful, glowing, translucent, magnificent, electrified, personage who spoke to me through his thoughts. He did not use words from his mouth, but still I understood everything he wanted me to. This incredible, vivid vision has given me much comfort over the past 22 years. I know this experience was allowed by a loving heavenly father, who knew my son wanted to keep a promise he made to his mother. Loren, You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers for comfort and peace to be yours until you are called home.
All my love to you and yours,
Chris
Beautiful Loren,
San Diego loves you and envelopes you in its arms. May you feel its warm arms around you, comforting you and bringing you peace up until the time you know in your soul that enough, is enough.
God bless you and your amazing family,
Mary
Not today Loren .. we still have a Healing Garden to name after you… Alot of people want to show you how much they love you….
http://Www.Scripps.org/Loren
Xoxoxo susan
Not being a Native Californian, you are what our Golden State means to me: sunny, bright, healthy and good. Loren, you are a good man, a good person and a good soul. As a cancer survivor, I do not feel pride at being labeled that for I know many good people have not been so blessed. So many times in the last 13 years of my surviving a deadly cancer, I have asked “Why me?” Why have I been spared when so many others with so much more to live for have left this earth. Again I am asking the same question when reading your posts. But it is not for me to question. I do not understand why I am still here. I do not understand why good people have to endure challenges like cancer. But I do know that you are blessed to have a loving family, a community that loves you and supports you. and people that have never met you that are praying for you and your loving family. Whatever lies ahead on your path, I know that you will face it with grace and dignity and whenever I think of you I will always remember your wonderful smile and your happy face.
I have been following your journey, enjoyed the posts, laughed and cried,along with all your followers, and have been touched, inspired, and amazed. As an oncology nurse, I have seen many different phases of the journey. Today, one of our patients, along w/her husband, decided that enough was enough. After having a long conversation with the doctor, she came in to say farewell, not just to me, but to one of the other patients that she has met on this journey. As the other patient and her husband cried, she said “Don’t worry about me, I will be okay, it IS okay.” I realized then, it was true, she IS okay. After 21 yrs in this profession, in this specialty, the tears still flowed. When IS enough enough? Only you will know the answer to that, and I know that as difficult as it will be for all of us, I know that you will be okay. My thoughts, prayers, light and love to you and to your family.
You haven’t “given up”….All time is YOUR time! You are a fire and your spark, your luminosity, your warmth and your glow is here now and that can not be changed. You touch and have touched so many. And that can not be changed. You are loved. And that can not be changed. Draw from those things. You ARE the warrior! Today…and tomorrow !!! That can not be changed! And for this…for YOU, WE are thankful!
That brought tears to my eyes, all I can say is you are my Hero! Your whole family is amazing, so strong and so much love.
What a good man you are and will always continue to be.
We love you Loren .
When it’s time for that next step , I hope it’s peaceful.
And I hope that people aren’t too sad as you make that transition, although you will be missed. Omg we will miss you.
We will miss you because you are one hell of a guy. Really, you’re one of the good guys. Your legacy is awesome.
You have a wonderful family.
And you have followers. I have lived in San Diego almost all my life, and I have been watching you on the news forever. You are a big reason why I love San Diego. I love the outdoors. I could practically live outside all day long ( I have the skin cancer to prove it). I love our sunsets and even our sunrises. I love ! the ocean. I Love the weather! And I love the environment and you have taught me and a lot of other how to take care of our home.
I don’t know what’s on your bucket list, or if you even have one. But I wouldn’t be surprised if you’ve already completed it, because you sure as he’ll have done a lot. You have a lot of good, I think more than most people. You have taught us how to live.
I wish you beautiful sunsets forever. I think it takes a beautiful person to see beauty the way you do.
No mud no lotus.
No compost no rose.
These are amazing words And You too are a truely loving soul .
love you Loren, you made so many fun days and sun days with all of us
Loren~ Thankyou for sharing your thoughts and your very special life with all of us…We are all on this journey together so never feel alone…..who really knows what is in the future…..Gratitude my friend……that is my mantra every day and I am sure it is also yours:)
Loren, I forgot to ask you. Didn’t you have the Christmas tree concoction for keeping Christmas trees fresh for over a month? Bleach and other ingrediants? What ever it is ,my daughter-in-law has used your recope every year for years. It works. Could you please put it on your page again for all to see. Amazing stuff. Trees as fresh a month later after decorating. Thanks and God Bless you. Shirley again…El Cajon
Great insight. Relieved I’m on the same side as you.
Dearest Loren, in my humble opinion, “enough is enough” only when you and the cosmos come to a mutual decision–but what complicates that is my belief that we each choose our path, our incarnation in our worldly body via specific parents, and who we touch for however long we live. Energy can never be created or destroyed, or so they say. Therefore, we always have been, always will be, in some form, and, with a bit of knowledge, compassion, and trusting our heart, will never lose the connections with those who have enlightened us, loved us, taught us, and given us lessons to carry us forward to higher levels. xoxo forever and drink your green juice!
I read your post with a heavy heart but also memories of my beloved son’s final days. He passed in 2006 from a very rare cancer at the age of 21. As he was being cared for at the San Diego Hospice he became quite vocal at one point, repeating ” There’s a man, no pain”. Not much could give me comfort at that time, but to know that there was an image for him and a promise of ” no pain” has helped me over the years. Whatever lies ahead for us, I hope IF the time comes for you, there will be a man and no pain.
Loren I cannot even come close to telling you how much you mean to San Diego and all of us. Your courage is unbelievable.I can’t even think of you leaving here. I enjoy reading your thoughts and experiences .I know how hard it must be for you and your wonderful loving family.I know how hard it is for all. My husband died of liver cancer in 2010.Two of my sons are both gone. The pain and hurt is almost unbearable. Please know it is better I believe on the other side. Keep the faith. I always believe in miracles. Stay strong. God Bless you and your familly. All of you have amazing strength.
Incredible, amazing, inspiring. You are something so special ! Thank you for sharing your soul. You help us on our own journeys and we all better for knowing you. Bless you, bless you, bless you!
Loren, Thank you for allowing us to share your journey. Your posts have been insightful, amusing, poignant, lovely and inspiring. When you reach the time to let go, we will have so much by which to remember and treasure your life, which has been so meaningful for so many. I am thankful that day is not today. Bless you!
Dearest Loren, I have followed your battle through this nightmarish year and admired your courage and determination along with your family’s perseverance in supporting and loving you through this trying time. You will know when to give up. And when you do, know that there is a hereafter. It’s real, it’s true. You have to believe in Him and know that He will take you in His arms when your time comes. Have you read ‘Heaven is for Real’? It was one of the most outstanding books about the hereafter that I’ve ever read. I highly recommend it. Can’t remember the author’s name but if you Google it, you’ll find it. That book should answer any questions you may still have regarding life after death. God Bless You Loren for your courage and fortitude and know that you’ve touched so many hearts.
Sit gently and tenderly with the question “when is enough enough? I’m recalling from chemistry class that nothing is created or destroyed – it merely changes form. I believe that consciousness is infinite and eternal.You will know when you are ready to “graduate” … Beauty awaits you and love will carry you to the other side. Thank you for all that you have given to so many. We’ve not met in person, yet I am with you right now in caring and belief that you are stepping into greater good. Blessings and gratitude, Loreen Blume-Edwards 12/16/2013
You are my hero! God bless! Thank you for your always amazing insights.
Ten years ago I was in the recovery room after getting a couple of stents in my heart when my heart stopped for 12 seconds. I flat-lined and went to “the yellow room,” as they call it. It wasn’t really a room because there were no walls and no floor – I was floating in space. Then the nurse slapped my face and woke me up. Awaking from that 12 seconds was the happiest moment of my life. For the first time in my life I was completely, absolutely relaxed, Completely. From that I realized that when we die we are happy. I had heard that, but at that moment I believed it. I acquired an interest in “Near-death experiences” (NDEs) and found two books by Concetta Bertoldi “Do dead people watch us shower?” (they do, but they just don’t care.) and “Do dead people walk their dogs? (of course they do…). You might like these books. They are short and direct and easy to read and they answered a few questions for me. My sister, Mary, died a few months after I read these books and her passing was in some ways a pleasant experience for me. We laughed, we cried, made jokes at each other’s expense, then she just went away. I talked to her after she let go and I am pretty sure she heard everything I said. And maybe some of the stuff that I just thought. I went outside and cried briefly while she was being prepared by my other sister, and then I sat in the sun and talked to her. I think – for whatever it is worth – that you will know when the time is right and you will be happy. People around you will be sad for awhile, then later they will find themselves telling funny stories about you to their friends, as it should be. You will be missed, but more importantly, you will leave lessons for everyone associated with you. And they will smile at the memories. Me, included. I hope this helps you find some answers. God Speed, old son.
lovely story! We do not die, just change forms! Our spirits (souls) continue to exist!
Thank you again for being in touch with all of us. You give all of us the strength to persist. How fortunate you and we are to have the family love and support that keeps us going every single day. It’s all we could ever hope for. Walter, aka , voicebox man, is doing great since we last met. We as always send our love and our prayers to you and your family.
Don’t be afraid! You are loved and we all pass over. Some people are never loved or enjoyed their life. You always were nice to me when I waited on you at Filippi’s in Kearny Mesa. Being kind resonates beyond your life. You are important and you’ve done really well in this life. Take time to feel all the love you have echoed here and most important.. Don’t be afraid. Your alright!
Loren,
Having just lived this with Ted (Abel) after his nearly 26 year brain tumor journey, I can only tell you that you and only you have that choice. Even though we’ve not been lucky enough to meet, you and your family are in my thoughts. If there’s anything I can do, and I know people say that, please call on me.
I hope there are as many sunsets as you want there to be.
Debbie
Loren, first of all, your Mom gave you an uncommon name (you’re the ONLY Loren I’ve ever known but I’m sure you all feel a kinship). I think she must have known you would be a leader in your field and needed an appropriate name. You may be, in fact, at the end of your earthly journey but if a life is measured by impact on others – you truly are in an elite group! Your illness makes us sad because we don’t want to see such a kind man suffer, we don’t want to see your wife and children so sad, we don’t want you to leave yet because we have so much left to learn from you – but I can say that I ALSO know how weary it can make you to have a painful illness. People want you to fight but until they’ve walked a mile in your shoes…they should just support your decision and try to understand the reasons behind it. I’m so glad you started the blog – it will give us all comfort when you’re gone. You’re one in a million. I am richer for having “known” you. Thank you and peace be with you in the coming days…
I am so sorry to hear this. I no longer live in sd and a friend forwarded me this link. You will have no idea who I am, but you played a big role in my early life. It may sound silly– well, it does sound silly but when I was in elementary school my class was learning about weather patterns. I was tasked with teaching our class a lesson about weather. Since I knew nothing, I called you at your news station since you were my parents favorite weather guy and asked you to come to my class. Not only did you respond to me, but you came to my class and you were happy to teach us about the weather. What you gave me that day was confidence. Confidence to ask for what I wanted and to not be afraid of someone turning me down. Confidence to go for a goal that seemed pretty far fetched at the time. These are lessons I’ve now carried with me 20+ years later. Thank you for that. Thank you for being so nice to a kid you owed nothing to. Thank you for the light you have given San Diego for so long.
Thanks, Loren, for your honesty…and the hope that you maintain. As one of the earlier posters stated “None of us knows what awaits us specifically…we have what we believe.” All I can really add is keep believing. In my own personal world, that’s really all we have, because I believe this (life on earth…with all its hilltops and valleys and everything in between) isn’t as good as it gets. There is something more…so much more! Keep the faith, my friend!
Billy I so agree, I have helped several family members to cross and each has been reaching for someone on the other side, they are there to help guide us, be they angels or loved one!
During my career one of the people I worked with had a child who had cancer, and he came in to my office one day crying and said “when does it become child abuse…” because the treatments were so horrible for this little 2 year old, he survived until 4 and I lost contact with them…
God says when enough is enough. Until then, keep teaching us the lessons you have to share.😇
Loren,
You don’t know me, but I have been moved and inspired by your journey and your blog posts. You’re brave and cool, and you are living up to the ideals I would set for myself if I were in your shoes. Though it’s unlikely I would manage them as gracefully as you are. (They’re very Zen ideals by the way.) 🙂
Here’s a villanelle I wrote in response to Dylan Thomas’ famous “Do Not Go Gentle,” when I began to doubt that it made sense. My mother was dying at the time. Your post today may reflect its sentiments.
WATERSHED
You’ll see both rivers from that watershed.
And though it’s understandable to cling
turn gently to the one that lies ahead.
Although the edges of an umbra spread
to shroud the shapes of your flock scattering
you’ll see both rivers from that watershed.
We all will have collected words unsaid,
the unsung love sighing and blustering.
Look gently to the one that lies ahead.
Despite knowing the frame is limited
you’ll wish another spring were issuing.
Accept both rivers at that watershed.
Of course, you’re bound to be unsure, misled
by science and religion wondering.
Turn gently to the one that lies ahead.
Perhaps there are no images to dread,
no forests of darkness and reckoning.
You’ll see both rivers from that watershed.
Go gently to the one that lies ahead.
Dear Loren,
I have hesitated to comment on your blog because that’s not my style. But I now feel compelled to let you know how achingly beautiful your post are. Thank you for sharing your deeply personal story with all of us. I am so sorry you have to go through this, however you are an inspiration to many. Please take care and much love.
[…] In what started as a question of how cancer has affected all of our lives, today I read a post by a man whom I admire, who is suffering from stage 4 brain cancer. His words…I cannot even paraphrase. They hit me in the gut and in my soul. When is enough, enough, he asked (https://thenancarrowproject.com/2013/12/16/when-is-enough-enough/)? […]
I used to see you reporting in Oceanside Harbor. I had a boat on “P” dock and you always stood right outside our dock gate. You impressed me coming to our Jewel of the North! Just your being there always made that space for me seem so much more special. Prayers for you and your family. People care about you Loren. God bless.
That you can still Love and Feel and Share what your thinking is a gift. And guess what else? You are San Diego’s Favorite Son (Sun) Love to you and yours.
This fine examination of a great question is indicative of a great soul. Thank you for sharing your grit and your grace. May you and your family be blessed with joy and the peace which passeth all understanding.
I love this so I’ll share my hope and hope it comforts you knowing that it’s all in Gods hands. A gift of hope. God bless your journey. Love to Susie, you and you family.
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Jesus Comforts His Disciples
1“Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in Goda ; believe also in me. 2My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? 3And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. 4You know the way to the place where I am going.”
Jesus the Way to the Father
5Thomas said to him, “Lord, we don’t know where you are going, so how can we know the way?”
6Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. 7If you really know me, you will knowb my Father as well. From now on, you do know him and have seen him.”
8Philip said, “Lord, show us the Father and that will be enough for us.”
9Jesus answered: “Don’t you know me, Philip, even after I have been among you such a long time? Anyone who has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, ‘Show us the Father’? 10Don’t you believe that I am in the Father, and that the Father is in me? The words I say to you I do not speak on my own authority. Rather, it is the Father, living in me, who is doing his work. 11Believe me when I say that I am in the Father and the Father is in me; or at least believe on the evidence of the works themselves. 12Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. 13And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. 14You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.
Jesus Promises the Holy Spirit
15“If you love me, keep my commands. 16And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever— 17the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will bec in you. 18I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. 19Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. 20On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. 21Whoever has my commands and keeps them is the one who loves me. The one who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love them and show myself to them.”
22Then Judas (not Judas Iscariot) said, “But, Lord, why do you intend to show yourself to us and not to the world?”
23Jesus replied, “Anyone who loves me will obey my teaching. My Father will love them, and we will come to them and make our home with them. 24Anyone who does not love me will not obey my teaching. These words you hear are not my own; they belong to the Father who sent me.
25“All this I have spoken while still with you. 26But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. 27Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
28“You heard me say, ‘I am going away and I am coming back to you.’ If you loved me, you would be glad that I am going to the Father, for the Father is greater than I. 29I have told you now before it happens, so that when it does happen you will believe. 30I will not say much more to you, for the prince of this world is coming. He has no hold over me, 31but he comes so that the world may learn that I love the Father and do exactly what my Father has commanded me.
“Come now; let us leave.
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a 1 Or Believe in God
b 7 Some manuscripts If you really knew me, you would know
c 17 Some early manuscripts and is
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I loved reading your post…so honest and true. None of us knows what awaits us specifically…we have what we believe. I am grateful Jesus paid the price for sin and I love his scripture That gives hope and the joy that awaits us in Christ. I don’t think enough is ever enough. Life shouldn’t end.
You have always been my hero in this world, your lessons have been heard.
God Bless You
And God Bess your Family.
Marie
May you continue until you decide it is enough. I leave on Sun to spend Christmas with my mother (small cell lung cancer) I believe after that day she will decide, enough and leave this earth and we will let her go and smile at the wonderful life she gave us. I still marvel at your post and wish for you and your family peace & the beauty of the butterflies.
Loren, you are amazing. So fortunate to have the loved ones by your side to help you to the next chapter- whenever you choose to turn that page. I had 38 days with my mom: from diagnosis to passing. We never said good-bye. We were going to fight the damn thing called cancer. Didn’t see the end coming so quickly and I think everyday of words that were unsaid, hugs not given and kisses left in the air. Now, when I see a butterfly, I think of my mom and those kisses… And a butterfly is near at the most unexpected times. You and your amazing family have been in my thoughts and prayers from day one.
From experience living with someone who had cancer…it truly is a roller coaster ride to say the least…if you believe their is a supreme being (God) take comfort in knowing you will come back again into a perfect new earth where there be no pain no tears no sorrow because they have past away (Rev 21:3,4). Keep your family and friends close AND cherish each moment with them. Those memories they will be able to share with each other later. Prayers for you, your family and friends. We really enjoyed being a part of your TV life.
Oh Loren~ Your wise and endearing words are of great comfort to me right now. I am leaving Colorado to be with my sister in Florida to be with her during her final battle with small-cell lung cancer. Has now gone to her liver and seems the time to hold her even closer. Such a personal fight for you I know. Please find the love and comfort of your beautiful family.
Loren, they have said it all. Thank you for all the lessons you have shared and taught us.
No, NOT TODAY. There is Christmas to look forward to and then the New Year. Keep fighting Loren, we are all praying for you and as always, I wish you and your family well!♥♥♥
IN GOD WE TRUST
Dear Loren,
Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and insight on this journey. For being strong and caring for us to help understand what Cancer patients go through. You are such a wonderful person to share with the humor, dignity and compassion for others.
I watched my Mom battle cancer. She fought the battle. But at some point she just knew she had enough. She was like you—very caring of others and how we were going to get through when she left for her next journey. But you will know when enough.
None of us want to see you leave on that next journey. We can be selfish. But know it is really okay once you know.
All my thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.
praying that you can continue to be in a comfort zone that will keep you strong, safe, and pain free, whatever that is, none of us can know your exact feelings, but we can imagine it and just support as much as we can for as long as we can for you! we are glad enough is enough isn’t today! my niece was diagnosed with ovarian in sept. she has just had her first chemo last thurs and it has knocked her for a loop! we can only hope she can have the strength you have shown loren, thru the good and bad. you are an inspiration, all the way! GOD BLESS YOU! you and your family will continue to be in our prayers everyday!